A true partner is one that can remain during the toughest times.♞
There’s a difference between those who live life and those who choose fortune and fame. The universe will test you in the toughest way. I’ve been to the top of the mountain. When all was well and comfortable I got tested. The moment will arrive where you have to make the biggest decision your soul can face.
Life appears great and one day the universe approaches you. “This is a nice life you have here”. “I’ve got a better one for you”. The catch is you must be willing to lose everything you’ve gained. This is the hardest test known to humanity. If you succeed, the reward will be the life of your dreams.
Imagine going from 100 to 0 overnight. The world turns against you. People you thought loved and cared for you turn out to be enemies. The place once known to be home is now a desolate memory. That great job you worked at for several years has released you with no intention of bringing you back; despite your years of service. Bills stack to the roof forcing you under immense pressure. Natural disaster strikes destroying everything you’ve ever worked for with that great job that let you go. Within a short period of time, you come to realize that it’s just you and the ones you care about the most. Helpless and broken you are faced with the extreme task of sustaining yourself and your family.
Many days go by teaching you the value of life. Keeping a roof over your head, eating, and seeing another day are all that’s important. Bonds become closer between your spouse and children. You’re no longer a big shot at that great job making tons of money. The only business you work for now is the family business. Everyday focus is centered on the immediate needs of the ones you care for the most. Though it’s a struggle, you adjust to the changes. Smiling becomes easier day by day. The universe reawakens your soul to everything you’ve suppressed for many years. Healing begins and things start to improve slowly but surely.
Nightmares don’t last forever. One day everything turns around for your life. The big break you’ve hoped for has arrived. The future now has light at the end of the tunnel. Better finances are up ahead even far better than before. Fresh air has been released back into your lungs. Resources start to come in from various places and people. Even those who played a major key in your fall are now being used as a stepping stone to your new life. New seeds are being planted as your soul grows with a newly found understanding of the universe. Stronger than ever, you’ve regained a tree that has deeper roots and are ready to be fruitful.
The test is coming soon if it hasn’t already. Don’t fold under the illusion of conclusion. Nothing here was meant to keep forever. Be willing to lose the spoils of the earth to inherit the soul of the universe. Will you be ready?
Life has many intersections. Lights turn red forcing you to stop and be alert of the situation in front of you. A choice must be made on how to handle your situation before advancing into the green. Fill up on positive energy. You’ll soon be on the free way.♞
Many times our good intentions and work go unnoticed. The way we respond shows our character. Keep striving for a better life and don’t delay your progress for those who misunderstand your choices. Peace and Blissings to all the Light Bringers and all those who promote Peace, Love, and Harmony. This is the “Black Horseman”♞ EL RA☥
Sixth grade was a transitional year in my life. Living in Moreno Valley was a dream but being away from my father became a nightmare. The fun times with my brothers and friends just wasn’t enough to sustain the happiness to get me through the year successfully. RJ started to become more aggressive in the household. His music gigs started to slow down and he became bitter. The financial responsibility fell on my mother’s shoulders as she worked 3 jobs, took care of home, and 3 additional children that belonged to RJ’s younger brother. On top of all the stress my mother had to endure RJ started to become verbally abusive towards her. My childhood began to slip away as I watched my mother’s beautiful smile turn into frowns.
Back in the Hood
Despite all the chaos in the home my brothers and I made it clear that we wanted to be back with Dad. This was a selfish move made on our behalf but my mother loved us so much that she agreed to let us go. She knew we were unhappy and us reuniting with my father would surely uplift our spirits.
Dad had a one bedroom apartment in the city of Gardena, CA. It was definitely a downgrade from living with my mom and RJ. Nevertheless, my brothers and I didn’t care because we were back with the man who brought us into the world. The hood was nothing pretty but I adjusted. My twin brother and I enrolled into Peary Middle School to continue sixth grade. My younger brother attended an elementary school nearby. We walked to school everyday sometimes not seeing my father before we left. He still worked overnight at Federal Express and sometimes we’d miss him by minutes. Dad always made an effort to get home early to bring us breakfast donuts. Those were the good times. He loved having us back home. The only issue was his busy schedule. He too worked three jobs to support my brothers and I. Music was his passion. Daily he practiced on his piano to create new songs for the choir he directed at church. There wasn’t enough time in the day for all the things we wanted to do with him. However, watching episodes of Martin became our household tradition. No matter what, we always found time to laugh. We’d even record the episodes on VHS so that when Dad got home we could watch it together.
Peary Middle School was a disaster. Everyday I watched someone get jumped into a gang. It became normal to me after the first few weeks. The toughest gang in the school believe it or not was ran by the girls! They called themselves tweety birds but there was nothing nice about them at all. They of course wore yellow and performed their daily jumps in the morning before first period. I always had a good spot to see it all go down. It always brought confusion to my mind seeing a female get beat almost lifeless then get embraced with hugs and love afterwards. I knew then I would never become a gang member but the lifestyle always intrigued me. My curiosity attracted many gang affiliated friends but I was never forced to join. Outside of the colors they represented they were just regular kids like me.
My twin brother Ra El stayed in fights. I always had to watch his back because he had a hot temper. If someone looked at him wrong he’d say, “What you lookin at”? I knew then it was about to go down every time. My mother strongly emphasised protecting each other at all times as she was the same way with her younger brothers. She didn’t mess around when it came to that. Therefore, when my brother fought, I fought. Even though we won our fights pretty easily you can be sure one of us would jump in to assist. I hated seeing my brothers getting swung on from another person. It just made me furious and I could never hold back that fight within me. One morning my twin squared off with a dark skinned fella with curly hair. The rules were only to throw body shots. This was something we did pretty regularly in school but I didn’t know this guy. Immediately they started throwing punches and the dark skinned fella broke the rules. My instincts took over and the rest was history. Ra El clearly got the better of the exchange but I finished him off to send the message. Break the rules and suffer the consequences. My twin and I got suspended for 3 days following that incident.
The night of the fight my mother called to check on us to see how we were doing. I couldn’t lie to my mother so I told her the truth. She was outraged by the news and suggested that we move back to Moreno Valley with her. Things had gotten worst at home with her and RJ. She explained how he started to abuse her but I never told my Dad. He was already angry about the fight and he probably would have lost his mind with rage to learn what was going on with my mom. This new found information persuaded us to leave my Dad once again and move back with my Mother. Hard as it was leaving, my Dad understood and knew the best thing for us growing up would be to live with her and visit from time to time. My brothers and I knew we needed to be there for her and face this beast of a man together.
RJ’s music gigs started to pick back up. Knowing all the wrong doing he committed, money became his way of showing he was sorry. He purchased my mother all the finest clothes, shoes, jewelry, and even cars. She couldn’t resist the luxuries that he provided. He took her across the world leaving us with family sitters as we continued our education. They would leave for weeks at a time but mostly he’d be on the road alone performing with his music group. The smile I once knew had come back home. She was happy knowing we were back with her and having a beautiful home without constant turmoil. We had fun when RJ was away. My mother was like a kid around us. She always kept us laughing with her silly expressions and funny jokes. I was glad to be back with her.
This was the 3rd school in sixth grade. Vista Verde was a very strict school district. Unlike Peary, the staff actually cared about students succeeding. I quickly made friends at my new school and made sure I kept my academics up to par. I really made a strong effort to make my mother proud in every way possible. I didn’t want to let her down especially now that she was happy again. My brothers considered me a mama’s boy. I just wanted her to know I was here and willing to do whatever I could to keep her happy.
Stay tuned for Ch.6… Rancho Verde, and Murrieta
Peace to all the Light Bringers and all those who promote Peace, Love, and Harmony. This is the “Black Horseman”♞ EL RA☥
Today the Moon and Saturn occupy the sign of Scorpio. Emotions will be strong in the areas of home and your inner self. Utilize this day to get rid of the junk around the house. Clean the house from top to bottom and redecorate. Many underestimate the power of cleaning and changing your visual environment. Some consider this a form of magic. Apply the necessary energy at home to transform your emotional experience. Saturn forces us to deal with the harsh reality of what we feel at this time. Avoiding your emotions will only delay spiritual progress.
Peace and Love to all the Light Bringers.☥
My eyes have seen the best and the worst. On the 11th of October 82 I manifested on earth in Harbor City, CA. My astrology is Libra Sun, Leo Moon, and Pisces Rising. For as long as I can remember, I’ve harbored a higher connection that was unexplainable as a child. Early life was great and chaotic at the same time. I was fortunate enough to see the good life and also fortunate to see the bad. This is my balance between worlds and the experiences that unfolded from it.
Where do I start
There is no particular order that I can start with because my life has been in tune with the air element I was born in. My life mentally has been everywhere. I’ve always been aware of my experiences and my choices right before I make them even as a child. More than anything in life I’ve cherished the idea of beauty. Somehow I knew this was part of my mission on the planet. I’ve lived in beautiful homes as a kid along with a balance of poverty stricken houses. The fortunate times of life taught happiness, value, and leadership. When life got hard lessons of struggle, perseverance, strength, and courage were learned.
Strangely enough, break up has produced more effects on my life psychologically than anything else. I can remember being 5 years old watching my young parents argue in an unfamiliar parking lot one evening. Little did I know at the time, my life was about to do a 360. This day ended the union that once was with my parents. Being a kid at the time, I was alert but didn’t comprehend the idea of separation. My mother left that night leaving my brothers and I with our father. Days went by not seeing my mother until I started to forget about her. I embraced my new environment living in Los Angeles, CA with my aunt, uncle, and cousins after they took us in. My father had to work long hours a day so we spent most of our time supervised by my aunt or uncle. He did the best he could do as a young heart wounded father. During this time I learned my life path through his pain.
Stay tuned for Chapter 2…♞#whoistheblackhorseman
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